Showing posts with label Warriorship. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Warriorship. Show all posts

Sunday 29 October 2023

You Wage War on Your Self




Vader
You Did Well. You’re A Warrior 
now, as I trained You to Be.

Ahsoka :
(SCOFFS) Is that all?

Vader :
Ahsoka, within you will 
be everything I am.

All The Knowledge I possess.

Just as I inherited knowledge 
from My Master and he from his.
You’re part of A Legacy.

Ahsoka
But MY part of that Legacy 
is one of Death and War.

Vader
But You’re MORE than that, 
because I’m more than that.

Ahsoka
You ARE more, Anakin.
But more Powerful and Dangerous 
than anyone realised.

Vader
Is THAT what this is about?

Ahsoka
If I am everything You are…

Vader
You’ve learned nothing.

Ahsoka
Don’t say that.

Vader
Back to The Beginning

I Gave You A Choice
Liveor DIE.

Ahsoka
No.

Vader
Incorrect.

(DRAMATIC MUSIC PLAYING)

(LIGHTSABERS CLASHING)

(GRUNTING)

(GRIMACING)

(SCREAMING)

(GROANING)

(VADER BREATHING)

Vader
You Lack Conviction.

(STRAINING AND GRUNTING)

(LIGHTSABERS CRACKLING)

Time to Die.

(INTENSE MUSIC PLAYING)

Ahsoka
I Choose to Live.

Vader : (Walks away)
 There’s Hope for You yet.

Sunday 18 September 2022

SEEMS

 
 
 
That is in fact, after all, 
the very essential nature 
of The Material Universe -- 
it’s always constantly coming-apart 
at The Seems.
 
 
 Bill's Ghost :
Is he here? Is The Doctor here?

(Her Doctor comes out of The TARDIS.)

Bill's Ghost : 
Doctor! (they hug) I knew itI did, I knew it. 
I knew you couldn't be Dead, 
you don't have the concentration. 

Doctor? What are you doing?

(He scans her with the sonic screwdriver.)

Dr. Disco :
Just keep still, please
Bill Potts.

Bill's Ghost :
Yeah.

Dr. Disco : 
My Friend Bill Potts was 
turned into a Cyberman
She gave Her Life so that people 
she barely knew could Live.
So, let's be clear -- Nobody 
imitates Bill Potts. 
Nobody mocks Bill Potts.

Bill's Ghost :
Bill Potts is standing 
right in front of you.

Dr. Disco :
How is that even possible?

Bill's Ghost :
Well, long story, short -- I totally pulled.

Old Grandfather : 
You, you did what?

Bill's Ghost : 
Heather. Do you remember, 
the girl in the puddle? 
Well, she showed up
She came for me.

Dr. Disco :
How romantic. Where is she?

Bill's Ghost :
Well, she's. She's.

Dr. Disco :
 And how did you get here?

Bill's Ghost :
I don't... I, I can't

Dr. Disco :
You can't remember. 
No, I bet you can't. 

(He scans her again.)

Old Grandfather :
That device. What is it?

Dr. Disco :
It's a sonic screwdriver.

Old Grandfather :
A, a what screwdriver?

Dr. Disco :
It's really a very good job.

Old Grandfather :
An audio screwdriver?

Dr. Disco :
There are only three low-key markers 
indicating that she's a duplicate.

Bill's Ghost :
I'm not a duplicate!

Dr. Disco :
So, who has been stealing 
The Faces of The Dead?

(The Doctors walk up the stairs to some very advanced technology.)

Old Grandfather :
Time travel technology, eh? Obviously.

Dr. Disco :
From the far future.

Old Grandfather :
I know. Sunglasses?

Dr. Disco :
They're sonic.

Old Grandfather :
Indoors?

(Flash. The Glass Woman appears.)

Dr. Disco :
So, What are You?

GLASS WOMAN
We are What Awaits at The End of Every Life. 
As every living soul dies, so We will appear. 
We take from You What We Need 
and return You to The Moment 
of Your Death. We are Testimony.

(All the archways light up. Very Tomb of the Cybermen.)

Dr. Disco :
You come from the distant future. 
You travel back in Time, find people 
at the exact point of death, and what, 
you harvest something from them?

GLASS WOMAN
Yes

Dr. Disco :
On behalf of The Dying
What is it that We have that 
The Future needs so badly?

Old Grandfather : 
And what has any of this to do with
 a War World One Captain landing 
at The South Pole in the wrong decade?

GLASS WOMAN
We were returning him to the appointed 
Time and Place of His Death. 
An error in the timeline ejected him 
into the wrong time zone. 
Now His Death must proceed 
as History demands.

Old Grandfather : 
If I may.

(He peers at her through his monocle.)

Old Grandfather :
Who were You?

Dr. Disco : 
She wasn't anyone.

(Sonic screwdriver.)

Dr. Disco : 
She's a computer-generated interface
connected to a multiform, 
inter-phasing data-bank.

Old Grandfather : 
Oh, for Heaven's Sake
will you put that ridiculous 
buzzing toy away and 
look at The Woman! You see? 

Her Face, it's very slightly asymmetrical. 
If it were computer-generated, 
it wouldn't produce that effect.

Dr. Disco : 
Yes. You're absolutely right
I should have noticed that.

Old Grandfather : 
Well, it might help if you 
could see properly.

(He removes the sonic glasses and drops them on the floor.)

Friday 3 December 2021

It IS Possible, and It is HAPPENING.







The CAPTAIN
Er, excuse me! Doctor?

Dr. Disco
Get back inside.

The CAPTAIN: 
I'm not quite sure, 
but it seemed to me that 
this young lady's life 
was being offered 
in exchange for my own. 

As it happens, I think my number is 
pretty much up anyway.

Bill's Ghost :
What are you talking about? 
Doctor, what's he talking about?

CAPTAIN: 
So, might as well make it 
count for something, eh?

I should be happy to take your place, 
if that would resolve this situation.

Testimony
Accepted.

Bill's Ghost :
That is, that is not Happening. 
That's totally Not Happening. 
Agreed?

Dr. Disco
Tell me What to Do, then. 
Bill Potts would Tell Me 
What to Do.

Bill's Ghost 
Do What You Always Do -- 
Serve at The Pleasure of 
The Human Race.

Dr. Disco
Here's What's Going to Happen :
First, I'm Going to Escape
You, with Me.

Old Grandfather
Where are we going?

Testimony
Escape is Not Possible.

Dr. Disco
It is Possible, 
and It is Happening
and 
I'm Taking Bill 
and The Captain with me.

Old Grandfather
Why are You 
Advertising Your Intentions? 

Can't you stop boasting 
for a moment?

Dr. Disco
Mister Pastry, too. 
I could do with a laugh.


Testimony
Escape is Not Possible.

Dr. Disco
Oh, I'm Going to Do 
WAY More Than Escape. 

I'm Going to Find Out 
Who You Are and 
What You're Doing, 
and 
If I Don't Like it, 
I Will Come Back 
and 
I Will STOP You. 

I Will Stop ALL of You!

Old Grandfather
Who The HELL 
Do You Think You Are..!?

Dr. Disco
The Doctor.

Old Grandfather
I am The Doctor
Who YOU Are, 
I cannot begin to imagine.

Testimony
Then let us show you, Doctor. 
See who you will become.

DAVROS: 
Doctor!

DALEK: 
Exterminate!

CYBERMAN
You will be assimilated.

(Images of past Doctors fly around in bubbles, 
including The War Doctor.)

Dr. Disco : 
No, no, that's not a good idea.

Perfect-10 [OC]: 
They all Died.

Testimony
The Doctor has Walked in Blood 
through all of Time and Space. 
The Doctor has 
MANY Names.

DAVROS [OC]: 
The Destroyer of Worlds.

Testimony : 
The Imp of the Pandorica. 
The Shadow of the Valeyard. 
The Beast of Trenzalore. 
The Butcher of Skull Moon. 
The Last Tree of Garsennon. 
The Destroyer of Skaro. 

He is The Doctor, of War.

(The images disappear.)

Old Grandfather : 
What, what was that?

Dr. Disco : 
To be fair, they cut out 
all The Jokes




Tuesday 27 July 2021

Warrior

“You are in Great Pain

aren't you?


You KNOW 

What Evil lurks in The Hearts of Men

for you have •seen• 

That Evil in Your OWN Heart. 


Every Man pays A Price for Redemption 

This is Yours.”


“I’m not lookin' for Redemption!”


“You Have 

NO CHOICE --


You WILL be redeemed, 

Because •I• will Teach you to 

USE Your Black Shadow 

to FIGHT Evil.”








“So, you know, I have felt that 
The Men have suffered a great deal 
in losing The Wild Man
which is a certain form of 
spontaneity connected with 
The Wilderness itself. 

And they’ve suffered a great deal 
since the Second World War 
in losing The Warrior. 
It’s very strange how this works.

We gave up the The King, that is, 
we founded our country 
with getting rid of The King. 

And you know, 
The King is weak in American Men also 
How can it be otherwise?

MOYERS: 
The King being–

BLY: 
The King [being] The Part of The Man 
that determines What He is Going to Do Now. 
What My Course is Going to Be.


“ On December 16, 1961, The World turned upside down and inside out, and I was born, screaming, in America.


It was the end of 
The American Dream, 
just before we lost our innocence irrevocably, 
and the TV Eye brought 
The Horror of Our Lives 
into our homes for all to see.

I was told when I grew up, 
I could be anything I wanted – 


A Fireman, 
A Policeman, 
A Doctor. 

Even President
it seemed. 
And for the first time in The History of Mankind, 
something new called 
An 'Astronaut.'

But like many kids growing up 
on a steady diet of Westerns, 
I always wanted to be 
The Cowboy Hero :– 


That Lone Voice in The Wilderness 
fighting Corruption and Evil, wherever I found it, 

and standing for 
Freedom, Truth and Justice.


And in my 
Heart of Hearts, 
I still track the remnants 
of That Dreamwherever I go, 
on my never-ending ride 
into The Setting Sun.


“.....Unbelievable. 

And you know what’s wild, people’s, er, 
attitudes in the States about it. 
Talking about Kennedy, people come up to me :

“Bill, quit talking about Kennedy, man. 
Let it •go•. It was a long •time• ago – 
just •forget• about it.”

And I’m like 
“Alright, then don’t bring up Jesus to me.”

Why….?
And Why 
The Hell Not….?

“Because you’re PISSING PEOPLE OFF, that’s •WHY• !!”

You bring up Kennedy, 
you alienate registered Republicans;
You bring up Jesus, 
you alienate atheists, liberals,
Movement Skeptics,
The Ron Paul People,
and 
ALL non-Christians —

•Nobody• has a problem with 
King Arthur....

The man didn’t even instigate A Crusade, for crying out loud....



“Bill, you know Jesus died for your si -”

Yeah, well it was 
long time ago
Forget about it!



How about this —
Get Pilate to release the fuckin’ files..!!
Quit washing your hands Pilate – Release The Goddam Files
Who else was on that grassy Golgotha that day?
“Bill, it was just, you know, hur, 
The Taking-over of Democracy
by a Totalitarian Government, 
let it go—”

" There is A Way of Bringing up The Child of a Samurai. 
From the time of infancy one should 
encourage bravery and avoid trivially frightening or teasing the child. 

If a person is affected by cowardice 
as A Child, it remains a lifetime scar. 

It is a mistake for parents to thoughtlessly make their children dread lightening, or to have them not go into dark places, or to tell them frightening things in order to stop them from crying.

Furthermore, A Child will become timid 
if he is scolded severely. 

One should not allow bad habits to form. 

After a bad habit is ingrained, 
although you admonish the child, 
he will not improve. 

As for such things as proper speaking and good manners, 
gradually make the child aware of them. 
Let him not know avarice. 

Other than that, if he is of a normal nature, 
he should develop well by the way he is brought up. 

Moreover, the child of parents who 
have a bad relationship will be unfilial. 

This is natural. Even the birds and beasts are affected 
by what they are used to seeing and hearing 
from the time they are born. 

Also, the relationship between Father and Child 
may deteriorate because of A Mother's Foolishness. 

A Mother loves Her Child above all things
and will be partial to The Child 
that is corrected by His Father. 

If she becomes The Child's Ally, 
there will be discord between Father and Son. 
Because of the shallowness of her mind, 
A Woman sees The Child as her support in old age. "






“So therefore, with My Father, I do not want or need to be shamed by him any longer. 
Well, that means that there has been some movement to get the doorknob on the inside of the door. 

That’s called A Warrior. A 
Warrior is NOT someone that goes off and kills. That’s the negative Warrior. 
That’s the one that’s without The King. 
But each of us needs our Warrior desperately.

Women have a very fierce Warrior in them, you know. They have a very fierce Warrior. And I would say that the women, in the last 20 years, have a much greater sense of their own boundaries than The Men do.

So, you know, I have felt that the men have suffered a great deal in losing THE WILD MAN, which is a certain form of spontaneity connected with The Wilderness ITSELF. 
And they’ve suffered a great deal since the Second World War in losing The Warrior. 
It’s very strange how this works.

We gave up The King, that is, we founded Our Country with getting rid of The King. And you know, The King is WEAK in American Men also; how can it be otherwise?”

MOYERS: 
The King being–

BLY: 
The King [being] the part of The Man that determines what he is going to do now. What my course is going to be.

MOYERS: 
The King can decide that for himself. That’s the whole image.

BLY: 
This is the inner King, the one who’s down there, who decides. And when he comes in “Follow your bliss,” is what Joe Campbell said. That means that the king decides that. You don’t join IBM and then do what your boss wants you to do. That means there’s only one king in the whole thing, and that’s the boss, and everybody else is a non-king.

MOYERS: 
It’s the way the world works.

BLY: 
Yeah, it’s the way it works. That’s the way it destroys inner kings in all of the men and in most of the women. So the king, then, is that part of you that can decide. And I mean it’s very private, too, because there are various kinds of kings.

Sunday 19 January 2020

Sometimes You Just Need Someone to Tell You What to Do




ATTACK-EYEBROWS : 
Tell Me What to Do, Then. 
Bill Potts would tell me What to Do. 


BILL POTTS : 
Do What You Always Do - 

Serve at The Pleasure of The Human Race. 

The times in your life when you need to turn towards The Spirit of The Father will, by their very nature, necessarily tend to be very few 
and far between and relate to a small menu of  very basic insoluble Life Problems 




CLARA: 
We can fix this, can't we? We always fix it.
DOCTOR: No. (to Ashildr) 

But you can. Fix this. Fix it now.
ASHILDR: It, it's not possible. I can't.
DOCTOR: Yes, it is, you can, and you will, or this street will be over. I'll show you and all your funny little friends to the whole laughing world. I'll bring UNIT, I'll bring the Zygons. Give me a minute, I'll bring the Daleks and the Cybermen. You will save Clara, and you will do it now, or I will rain hell on you for the rest of time.
CLARA: Doctor, stop talking like that.
ASHILDR: You can't.
DOCTOR: I can do whatever the hell I like. You've read the stories. You know who I am. And in all of that time, did you ever hear anything about anyone who stopped me?
ASHILDR: I know the Doctor. The Doctor would never
DOCTOR: The Doctor is no longer here! You are stuck with me. And I will end you, and everything you love.
CLARA: Doctor, for God's sake, will you stop?
DOCTOR: Now!
CLARA: I did this, do you hear me? I did this. This is my fault.
DOCTOR: I don't care.
CLARA: Liar. You always care. Always have. Your reign of terror will end with the sight of the first crying child and you know it.
DOCTOR: No, I don't.
CLARA: I do. Listen, if this is the last I ever see of you, please, not like this.
(The Raven caws in the distance.)
CLARA: (to Ashildr) Is there anything you can do?
ASHILDR: I'm sorry. I'm truly sorry, I
CLARA: Time's short. Yes or no?
ASHILDR: No.
(The Doctor breathes heavily. Rigsy is trying not to cry.)
CLARA: Well, if Danny Pink can do it, so can I.
DOCTOR: Do what?
CLARA: Die right. Die like I mean it. Face the Raven.
DOCTOR: No. This, this isn't happening. This can't be happening.
CLARA: Maybe this is what I wanted. Maybe this is it. Maybe this is why I kept running. Maybe this is why I kept taking all those stupid risks. Kept pushing it.
DOCTOR: This is my fault.
CLARA: This is my choice.
DOCTOR: I let you get reckless.
CLARA: Why? Why shouldn't I be so reckless? You're reckless all the bloody time. Why can't I be like you?
DOCTOR: Clara, there's nothing special about me. I am nothing, but I'm less breakable than you. I should have taken care of you.
CLARA: I never asked you to.
DOCTOR: You shouldn't have to ask.
(The Raven caws as it flies along the winding street, and the people scatter, terrified.)
RIGSY: Clara, if I'd known, I'd
CLARA: Don't. Shut up.
RIGSY: But I
CLARA: Really, Rigsy, shut up. If you feel guilty about this, even for one minute, I
(They hear the Raven.)
CLARA: You. Now, you listen to me. You're going to be alone now, and you're very bad at that. You're going to be furious and you're going to be sad, but listen to me. Don't let this change you. No, listen. Whatever happens next, wherever she is sending you, I know what you're capable of. You don't be a Warrior. Promise me. Be a Doctor.
DOCTOR: What's the point of being a Doctor if I can't cure you?
CLARA: Heal yourself. You have to. You can't let this turn you into a monster. So, I'm not asking you for a promise, I'm giving you an order. You will not insult my memory. There will be no revenge. I will die, and no one else, here or anywhere, will suffer.
DOCTOR: What about me?
CLARA: If there was something I could do about that, I would. I guess we're both just going to have to be brave.
DOCTOR: Clara.
(They hug.)
CLARA: Everything you are about to say, I already know. Don't do it now. We've already had enough bad timing.
(The Raven caws close by.)
DOCTOR: Don't run. Stay with me.
CLARA: Nah. You stay here. In the end, everybody does this alone.
DOCTOR: Clara
CLARA: This is as brave as I know how to be. I know it's going to hurt you, but, please, be a little proud of me.
(She touches his cheek. He takes her hand and kisses it.)
CLARA: Goodbye, Doctor.
(The Raven caws.)
 

Tuesday 31 December 2019

The Warriorship of Bill Potts



Warriorship is a basic sense of unshakeability. 
It’s a sense of immovability and self-existing dignity rather than that you are trying to fight with something else.” 




What Doctor Who companion Bill Potts teaches viewers about foster care

The new character has the potential to shine a light on a group of children that people might not otherwise consider

Leanne Mattu
Wed 12 Jul 2017 10.12 BST 
Last modified on Tue 17 Jul 2018 11.38 BST


Fans of Doctor Who started to learn about the Time Lord’s new companion a year before her first appearance. In that time, we learned quite a bit about Bill Potts, played by Pearl Mackie, and much of the media focus rested on the fact that she is the first openly gay companion.

What no one knew until the first episode was broadcast is something that resonates with me on a professional level. I work at Celcis – the Centre for Excellence for Looked After Children in Scotland – an organisation that works to make positive and lasting improvements in the wellbeing of children and young people who, for a variety of reasons, are looked after by the state, for example in foster care – children like Bill Potts.

Viewers first find out about her circumstances in a low-key way in the first episode, when she tells her foster mother, Moira, about The Doctor: “You know you’re my foster mum? He’s like my foster tutor.


Fostering a child with complex needs means being their advocate

I was keen to see how this aspect of Bill’s character would be received by viewers, given that media portrayals of foster families are sometimes problematic.

The first thing I noticed is that Bill is a working adult in her 20s, but still lives with her foster mother, Moira. 

Young people in care are often expected to become self-sufficient more quickly than their peers, but Bill’s situation is a nice example of the recent shift in policy that recommends young people have more gradual transitions to adulthood. 

Although we see Bill move out in episode four, this doesn’t work out, and by the sixth episode she is back living with Moira. 

I wonder how many viewers are aware that Bill’s experience isn’t the norm? How many would question the apparent ease with which Bill returned to live with her foster mother? 

In Scotland, less than 3% of young people eligible for support after leaving care remain with their former foster carers.

The media response to Bill’s family background was interesting. One review read:

Moffat’s decision to write Bill as someone who has failed to get into the university that The Doctor has been lecturing at is troubling. Why is such a bright young woman shovelling chips onto the plates of students, rather than learning alongside them? 

Such a storyline feels somewhat quaint and patronising today … it’s a shame that Moffat reinforces the notion that a person from a tough background ... will have a hard time pursuing higher education.

I can understand why the reviewer feels this was the wrong approach. Being looked after should be no barrier to accessing university, college or any other opportunity. 

It’s a sad reflection of reality, however, that the pursuit of higher education for young people who have been in care is still challenging. Bill herself tells us that she “never even applied”, although she’s “always wanted to come here”. 

We never find out why she didn’t, but lack of support or encouragement could have played a part. By reinforcing the notion that someone with Bill’s background might struggle to access higher education, I hope Steven Moffat has encouraged some viewers to wonder why that might be.

There were also some interesting comments about the relationship between Moira and Bill. One suggested Moira was “neither warm nor nurturing”. 

Another described her as “emotionally absent”, and a third as a “neglectful foster mother”. 

At first this was quite a leap to judgment, but episode six confirmed something hinted at in the first episode: Moira is oblivious to Bill’s sexuality. 

Their relationship isn’t as close as it perhaps first seemed. 

Although we find out that her mum died when Bill was a baby, we don’t know how long she has lived with Moira; perhaps, like many young people in care, Bill has moved several times and hasn’t lived with Moira long enough to develop a truly maternal level of closeness.

Children in foster care aren't waiting for a loving home – they are already in one
Andy Elvin

Bill does have a sense of connection with her biological mother, though. The Doctor, who learns that Bill has no photos of her, puts his time-travelling capabilities to good use by going back to get some. As social care professionals know, having photos may contribute to Bill’s understanding of her history and identity, which can be important for her wellbeing. 

Bill’s mum is only alluded to briefly a few times, but in episode eight Bill’s ability to focus her thoughts on her mother is vitally important.

In a speech at this year’s Scottish Institute of Residential Childcare conference, Lemn Sissay spoke about the long tradition of fictional characters from “substitute care” backgrounds, and suggested that “the kid in care is used in popular culture because they feel so much”. Bill has amazing potential to shine a (fictional, wibbly-wobbly, timey-wimey) light on a group of children that people might not otherwise consider.

Leanne Mattu is a research associate at the Centre for Excellence for Looked After Children in Scotland


[Bill's house, Bristol]

BILL:
You know you're my foster mum?
He's like my foster tutor.

MOIRA:
Am I going to have to break every bone in his body?

BILL:
It's not like that.

MOIRA:
You need to keep your eye on Men.

BILL: (sotto)
Men aren't where I keep my eye, actually....


I was a hidden treasure, 
and I wished to be known, 
so I created a creation (mankind), 
then made Myself known to them, 
and they recognised Me.

 
[Farm]


BILL:
They'll attack on both sides. I'll take the back, yeah?

ATTACK-EYEBROWS:
Yeah. This is it, I'm afraid.
So, if there's anything we ought to be saying?

BILL:
I can't think of anything. 
Can you?

ATTACK-EYEBROWS:
(thinks) No.

BILL: 
But, hey er, you know how I'm usually all about women and, 
and kind of people my own age.
 
ATTACK-EYEBROWS:
Yeah?

BILL: 
Glad you knew that.

(She leaves.)

DOCTOR: 
Without Hope. 
Without Witness. 
Without Reward.
 
 
[Barn]
 
(Alit enters.)
 
BILL:
Is that it?
 
(Alit puts down something covered in a rough cloth.)
 
BILL:
I really wouldn't harm you, you know.
 
ALIT:
I know.
 
 
(But she still backs away as Bill steps forward and picks it up, then uncovers it and turns it over. It is a mirror, and her reflection reveals that she is really still Cyber-Bill.)
 
CYBER-BILL:
That is not me.

ALIT: 
I'm sorry.

CYBER-BILL: 
I am Bill Potts.

ALIT: 
I'm sorry! I'm sorry!

(She runs away and into the Doctor.)

CYBER-BILL: 
I am Bill Potts!
DOCTOR: Hey, hey, hey, hey!
(Cyber-Bill puts down the mirror.)
DOCTOR: Hello, Bill Potts.
CYBER-BILL: 
Doc-tor.

ALIT: 
I'm sorry. I gave her a mirror.

DOCTOR: 
Oh no, don't be sorry. 
You were being kind. 
Nothing wrong with kind. Jelly baby?

ALIT: Thank you.

DOCTOR: 
You're welcome.

ALIT: Bye.

DOCTOR: 
Toodle-oo.

(Alit leaves and closes the barn door behind her. We see Bill as her human self again. The Doctor has a bit of a limp.)

BILL: 
What was that, in the mirror?

DOCTOR: 
Er, a Cyberman.

BILL: 
What's a Cyberman?

DOCTOR: 
A technologically augmented human being, designed to survive in a hostile environment. 
Perfectly sound idea. 
Unfortunately all they want to do is to turn everyone else into Cybermen too. 
They go viral.

BILL: 
Why?

DOCTOR: 
They consider themselves to be an improvement, an upgrade.

BILL: 
No. Why do I see a Cyberman in the mirror?
(Long pause.)

DOCTOR:
 What do you remember?

BILL: 
There's quite a lot, you know? I was down there for ten years.

DOCTOR: 
And then one day, they took you to the Conversion Theatre. 
Do you remember that?

BILL: 
No. Bits of it. 
You turned up.

DOCTOR: 
Do you remember what they did to you?

BILL: 
Nothing. 
Look at me, I'm fine. 
I'm fine!

(But as she touches her forehead, she sees a Cyber-hand.)

DOCTOR:
 You are so strong. You're amazing. 
Your mind has rebelled against the programming. 
It's built a wall around itself. 
A castle made of you, and you are standing on the battlements, saying no. “No, not me”.

BILL: 
What are you talking about?

DOCTOR: 
All that time, living under the Monks, you learned to hang on to yourself.

BILL: 
But I'm, I'm fine. Look at me!

DOCTOR: 
Bill, what you see is not you. 
Your mind is acting like a perception filter. 
You still see yourself as you used to be.

BILL: 
Used to be?

DOCTOR: 
It won't last forever.

BILL: 
What do you mean, used to be?

(She advances, he retreats. Then she sees her shadow cast on the wall.)

DOCTOR: 
Bill, I'm sorry, but you can't be angry any more. 
A temper is a luxury you can no longer

BILL: 
Why can't I? 
Why can't I be angry?

DOCTOR: 
Bill, please!

CYBER-BILL: 
You left me alone for ten -

BILL: 
Years! Don't tell me I can't be angry!

(Her helmet weapon blasts the barn door to firewood. The children scream.)
REXHILL [OC]: Get back! You all right?
DOCTOR: Because of that. That's why. Because you're a Cyberman.
 
[Farm]
 
NARDOLE: 
Right. Everyone, back to work. 
Nothing to see here. 
Somebody broke the barn, no biggie.
Come on, defences don't build themselves

(Bill comes outside.)

DOCTOR: 
It's okay. They're just frightened.

BILL: 
People are always going to be afraid of me, aren't they? 
Aren't they?

(He wipes a tear from her Cyber-face.)

BILL: 
What is that, engine oil?

DOCTOR: 
No. It's an actual tear. 
But it shouldn't be.

MASTER: 
Doctor. Right, while you've been here chatting up Robo-Mop, me and me have been busy. 
We've found it. (Razor) 
Oh, hello, my dear. 
My God, you were so boring for all those years. 
But it was worth every day of it, for this.

DOCTOR: 
Bill, don't let him upset you.

MASTER: 
Though, didn't you used to be a woman? 
I'm going to be a woman, fairly soon. 
Any tips? Or, maybe, I dunno, old bras?

CYBER-BILL: 
I am not upset.

MASTER: 
Oh. Well, doesn't that take all the fun out of cruelty. Might as well rile a fridge. Come on, this way.

(But inside, Bill is crying.)
 
[Countryside]
 
BILL: Why are there so many children in that house?

DOCTOR: 
Small community, several hundred at most. 
So they keep the children together for their protection.

(He indicates the Cyber-scarecrows.)

DOCTOR: 
Those things, they make it up here sometimes. 
They try to take the children.
(He gasps and leans against a tree. Regeneration energy glows briefly in one hand.)

BILL: 
You all right?
 
DOCTOR: 
Yes, fine.
(He breaks off a dead branch to use as a walking aid.)
 
BILL: 
What was that?
 
DOCTOR: 
They target the children because conversion is easier with a younger donor. 
The brains are fresher, and because the bodies are smaller, there's less to er -
 
BILL: 
Less to what?

MASTER: 
Less to throw away.

BILL: 
You said. 
I remember, you said you could fix this. 
That you could get me back. 
Did you say that?

DOCTOR: 
I did say that, yes.

BILL: 
Were you lying?

DOCTOR: 
No.

BILL: 
Were you right?

DOCTOR: 
No. 
Bill....

BILL: 
We're not going to get out of this one, are we.
DOCTOR: 
Well, I don't know. There are always possibilities.
(Thank you, Mister Spock.)

BILL: 
No. I can feel it. In my head, the programming. 
The Cybermen are taking me over, piece by piece. 
It's like I'm hanging on in a hurricane, and I can't hang on forever.

DOCTOR: 
Bill, look, whatever it takes

BILL: 
No, I want you to know, as my friend, I don't want to live if I can't be me anymore. 
Do you understand?

DOCTOR: 
Yeah.

BILL: 
And that's not possible, is it?

DOCTOR: 
Well, I'll tell you what else isn't possible. A Cyberman crying. 
Where there's tears, there's hope. 
Come on.